Signs

Signs of my impending nervous breakdown:

Well, the only real "sign" is the fact I'm still showing ill effects from last week. But that's saying a lot. I tend to be able to take things one week at a time and nothing from last week really affects me this week, and so on.

But it's like my mind and/or body just can't take it, because this week has been awful. Not because of anything I did (or didn't do) this week; granted, I had quite a bit of homework, but I don't think that caused anything so much as it just added to it.

Last week was one of, if not the, busiest week I've had in a looooong time. Sunday through Wednesday, I spent countless hours at school...probably twice my regular on-campus time, but that's just a guess. And beyond being there and doing all sorts of TV bullshit, I had regular classes, and I also then had to come home and do my homework.

And deal with my household.

I don't see how parents/family people go to or go back to school. It's unbearable enough doing minute chores around the house, taking messages down from phone calls, making sure all the dogs are in the house, making sure my sister gets home from work, running to the store to pick up this or that, and now also having my uncle around non-stop makes for quite the difficult task.

Oh, and work? How do people have freaking jobs?! On top of all that?!

I can't do it, it's impossible.

Anyway, so I was extremely busy last week...right up until Thursday, when things weren't so much "busy" as there were just fucked up. Thursday and Friday, we had 60 degree weather, and yet I come down with a cold (which I'm still trying to recover from). Also, my grandpa had a heart attack. So my weekend was consumed by those two things and - you guessed it - more homework.

So instead of going into my Monday well-rested, relaxed, and ready to deal with another week on the grind...I was already beat down into the dirt, tired, sore, sick (partially at that point), and just generally not good. And it's really getting to me now.

I just got through, this afternoon, with producing a live newscast. Granted, I was a mere cameraman, and that had me on-edge, nerves-wise...I couldn't imagine producing, directing, TDing, audio directing..........okay, pretty much anything else. I couldn't imagine doing another position because it'd be a ton of work and it's work that needs to be completely on-point or ya show gets fucked.

So that took a lot out of me. Not that I had much left to take. And I still - yup, uh huh - have homework.

Anyway, yeah, chances are I'd complain about this as it is...but part of me says I'd just leave it alone, other than the fact it really does seem to be taking a physical toll on me. The thing is, when I concentrate on something (taking notes, driving, walking, typing this right now) I'm fine...but as soon as relax my eyes from the screen and/or stop typing and/or take my mind off of it (basically, if I break my concentration), I get a bit light-headed and (in some instances) experience an almost (but not quite) out-of-body feeling. So it's crazy.

I'm hoping things come together for me in the next week or so, because I don't know how much longer I can last feeling like this. It's weird because, in general, this hasn't been a bad week at all and yet this "feeling" (the light-headed/out-of-body kinda shit) makes me feel terribly depressed.

So I dunno. It's the weekend and I have two things I need to accomplish: 1) plenty of sleep and 2) finish my homework. PZ, beyatch.

Stupidity Reigns Supreme

I apologize for not having a link with it, I found the story on the LA Lakers' AOL message board. The person who posted it didn't provide the source:

***

Gift of Cookies Crumbles; Girls Told to Pay $900

DURANGO, Colo. (Feb. 4) - A Colorado judge ordered two teen-age girls to pay about $900 for the distress a neighbor said they caused by giving her home-made cookies adorned with paper hearts.

The pair were ordered to pay $871.70 plus $39 in court costs after neighbor Wanita Renea Young, 49, filed a lawsuit complaining that the unsolicited cookies, left at her house after the girls knocked on her door, had triggered an anxiety attack that sent her to the hospital the next day.

Taylor Ostergaard, then 17, and Lindsey Jo Zellitte, 18, paid the judgment on Thursday after a small claims court ruling by La Plata County Court Judge Doug Walker, a court clerk said on Friday.

The girls baked cookies as a surprise for several of their rural Colorado neighbors on July 31 and dropped off small batches on their porches, accompanied by red or pink paper hearts and the message: "Have a great night."

The Denver Post newspaper reported on Friday that the girls had decided to stay home and bake the cookies rather than go to a dance where there might be cursing and drinking.

It reported that six neighbors wrote letters entered as evidence in the case thanking the girls for the cookies.

But Young said she was frightened because the two had knocked on her door at about 10:30 p.m. and run off after leaving the cookies.

She went to a hospital emergency room the next day, fearing that she had suffered a heart attack, court records said.

The judge awarded Young her medical costs, but did not award punitive damages. He said he did not think the girls had acted maliciously but that 10:30 was fairly late at night for them to be out.

02-05-05 08:13 EST

***

Un-flippin'-believable. It's this kind of stupidity that has drove me to hate 90%-plus of the entire world's population (whether I've met them or not). People are fucking stupid, don't you ever forget it, or I'll personally deliver cookies to your house.